SO MUCH STUFF.
OK so. I've been getting fucked up the bum in a non pleasant way by work lately, so yesterday I decided to go out and look for a new job. First place I go to, just to give them a resume, in my muddy trudged around in jeans and sweaty fresh from the gym t-shirt... they offer me full time, starting "tomorrow" (today) on the spot. WTF. How do I luck into this?
So today I had my first day as DOUGH MASTER at Pizza Hut. It went well. Then I got to work at Steeped About Tea, where I had no customers the entire evening, and the total cash out for the entire day was somewhere around $50. I'm deserting that shit like a rat fleeing a sinking ship. They're SO going under. and I don't like the way tehy treat the staff, Poor Alana...
And it's my birthday tomorrow!
And a friend is staying in my home for a little while. She's going through a rough time. That's all you need to know.
And I bought a lottery ticket, because of my good luck and, you know, birthday. and maybe because I would really like to visit Singapore in about a year...
AAAAANNNDDD!!!!! The mini carnival is at the mall parking lot until Saturday! I went to go visit the psychic, because there's so much going on, and I can only make sense of so much and wanted a second opinion. OMG. I always go into these things with an open, but critical mind. Like, there's the possability that I'm just hearing what I want to hear, but she was so specific with little/no input from me.
I had cards and palm done. Cost me $30, which is pretty good to just be entertained. And she didn't even do a topless reading with a bubblegum extra nipple.
So we started with the cards. I had to focus on what I wanted to know about while shuffling, which is of course my future with a certain someone... I kept fucking it up and she had to correct me a bunch of times, but eventually I got it right.
Hmm, trying to remember...
immediatly saw all the conflict and change and craziness I've been through recently, still going through... and said I will continue to go through, and it will get worse, but it will be worth it and I will come out on top.
one thing she pointed out right away, is that there is a dangerous female who may be trying to interfere, with ill intentions. Either a capricorn, taurus, or virgo.
Told me there's a young man in my life right now, and that we are peaceful together, and that we will be together forever, and it's possibly the best thing to ever happen to me. especially after what I've been going through.
she mentioned school, and said that I would be very successful in using my education. She isn't the first to say this, but because of some position the devil landed in it meant lots of money and success. I can't remember all the meanings in tarot. I can't even remember what each suit stands for... coin is money, cup is health, something something... it was cool though.
Also there's an older man thinking of me, and being helpful, and being important/special to me. She suggested it may be my father, but said she didn't know for sure. I knew it was Calvin. Incidently, when I got home, I found that he had tried to contact me at approximatly the same time she told me that he cares about me. That's one of the reasons I allow myself to believe in the possability that there is some truth to this art :)
And then I gave her my hand... she gave me a HOLY WTF OMG right off the bat. My reaction, not hers. I will be a mother. A MOTHER. SOMEONE WHO POPS BABIES OUT OF HER VAG, AND THEN NURTURES AND RAISES THEM. THEM. PLURAL. THREE CHILDREN. OMG. And also told me I will live to be very old, like 83/84ish. And so will my "young man"... I don't know if she could tell that he's 8 years YOUNGER THAN ME, but I'm guessing so because of talking about Calvin being... 7 years older than me. Also says there will not be any tragedy or death in my family.. my family being my branch of the tree, not my parents/brother. And that I will help many people and be spiritual and will be with this young man until we die.
Right, the becoming spiritual thing actually came up in the cards at some point, and I was holy fuck, you've got to be kidding D: You see, my young man is of a particular religion and it is customary that if I have any intention of having a future with him, I must convert. And I'm a good honest person, I said I can't fully commit to that idea, but I can commit to researching and learning and trying to understand it. At that point I will decide if I want to take it all the way or not.
She also mentioned that I will be very popular and unique in my carreer and need to protect my work from... like, plagiarism. This was in the cards.
Also noticed in reading my palm that I am "psychic" myself. I said well yeah, I'm an intuitive and involuntary empath. I wouldn't say PSYCHIC though. She reminded me though, that I have premonitions and other fun stuff. Which I do from time to time. and that whatever my gift/power/ability is, will only get stronger as I get older. And my thoughts on that are yup, just like my mom.
ok, I've got down all the details that I can remember for now. I don't really intend to get any comments, but if you happen to read this, you're welcome to share your psychic experiences.
You desire a love that will last forever. You are quite serious about finding this type of love, and that's why you think carefully about the men that you meet before deciding whether you could really love them. You don't just develop a crush on someone overnight: you look at a person's personality and other aspects of their life before deciding to form an attachment. If a guy doesn't meet your expectations, you would rather be alone. Your love has to be perfect. Be careful though, you could be missing out on some worthy relationships because your standards are so high.
I see that as being perfectly accurate :)
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Bright and Cheerful
You are always cheerful and charming. You never get too serious with people when they're around, but when you are alone, you think carefully about what they have said. That's because you don't want anyone to see you being too somber. Your personality means you have a lot of friends and you are often the center of attention. Many people who fall into this category become artists and movie stars, perhaps fame could be yours in the future as well.
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How will you choose your Mr Right?
You will make the most of being able to shop around for Mr Right. You love your freedom and will have a lot of fun learning about what sort of man you like. When you do find the guy for you, nobody will be able to keep you away from the church.
Who will be your future Mr Right?
Your real-life hero will be manly. He'll be dependable, even financially. He will protect you and always respect your feelings. He'll probably be quite a bit older than you.
When will you get married?
As soon as you fall in love, you'll want to grab your man and hang on to him. You will probably marry very young, so it would be wise of you to think carefully before committing.
What sort of wife will you be?
If your hubby is crazy enough to ask you to do silly things, you may as well have fun with him. You'll make a fun-loving wife.
Will you and your husband have a good time together?
You and your spouse will choose to spend time on more romantic activities. You won't end up quite as healthy, but you'll have plenty of fun going out for drinks, watching concerts or playing cards at home with other friends.
What will your children be like?
Your kids will be quiet and won't give you a hard time - they'll be a joy to have around. However, you should teach them to be stronger and more confident in themselves. Otherwise they might grow up to be losers.
How loyal are you?
You get along very well with most guys. Sometimes your friendliness misleads others to think that you're a bit of a flirt, but actually you've got a loyal heart. You'll never have eyes for anyone except your beloved husband.
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So I've been doing my workout program for a month now. I lost 3 pounds, and 8" overall (combined from bust, waist, abdoment, hips, thighs, and arms) And what did I do to celebrate?
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We were the only people there. The young man behind the counter politely ignored us being so silly XD It was a lot of fun. I'm going to do this again when I'm small enough to fit into my polkadot halter dress, or my camoflauge jumper dress (both non lolita, I don't want to give the wrong impression you guys!)
The best movie of all time.
I'll talk about why it's the best movie ever another time, but it relies heavily of Tim Curry being the most amazing "Devil" character ever. Costume/makeup/special effects, they're very impressive even when I don't mention that this movie came out in the 1980's.
I am relating to both The Lord Of Darkness and Lily in these little scenes. Drawn into something I really shouldn't be involved in, and manipulating an innocent. Well, that may not be EXACTLY what's going on in my life, but I'm really perceiving it to be so. But I guess I'm ok with that, I reflect on my own past experiences and think, this isn't all bad. If I work at it, things will come out very well for all parties involved. Is Sandy in love? I can't make that claim right now, although I know in my heart what the answer is. Is Sandy being cryptic on purpose? Yes. I feel a need to protect my emotions, as I know I am very sensitive and fragile. Besides, I've adapted to speak Sandynese so that only those who really care to know about me can decode.
I am bursting with desire to share with everyone. I am inhibited, protecting that with which I am trusted. I haven't been so happy in months, probably more than a year. Every few minutes I catch myself smiling, even though I am alone and don't need to put on a good face for anyone. There are those who know of and understand my struggle with depression, which started at the age of only 5 years old. There is no trace of it right now, only a positive outlook on the oppourtunities I will face in the future. And it isn't even through my efforts alone. It isn't the effort of only 1 other person either, but of many. Thank you. All that one needs to do to contribute to the happiness of those around them, is to remember that we are all human, and treat each other with the respect that each human deserves.
...and maybe I'm looking into studying a specific religion. Y'know. Like Pastafarian, but older. Again, it was a suggestion from more than one person, and being open to the suggestion has been doing a lot more than I could ever anticipate.
This was a Sandy moment. Celebrating an event that may have happened somewhere around Friday May 22 2009. I am alive.
friend asked me to take this test - not very surprised at the results, but it was really cool that they came up with this conclusion from the questions answered.
Your view on yourself:
You are intelligent, honest and sweet. You are friendly to everybody and don't like conflict. Because you're so cheerful and fun people are naturally attracted to you and like to talk to you.
The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You are not looking merely for a girl/boyfriend - you are looking for your life partner. Perhaps you should be more open-minded about who you spend time with. The person you are looking for might hide their charm under their exterior.
Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.
The seriousness of your love:
You are very serious about relationships and aren't interested in wasting time with people you don't really like. If you meet the right person, you will fall deeply and beautifully in love.
Your views on education
Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.
The right job for you:
You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.
How do you view success:
You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.
What are you most afraid of:
You are afraid of having no one to rely on in times of trouble. You don't ever want to be unable to take care of yourself. Independence is important to you.
Who is your true self:
You are full of energy and confidence. You are unpredictable, with moods changing as quickly as an ocean. You might occasionally be calm and still, but never for long.
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Hair is easy enough to deal with, it was just a change in colour and texture. My hair is so thin there isn't really a point in styling it, any attempts at volume just make a weird tranlucent bubble - think of your grandma.
My teeth were fixed up quite nicely by the orthodontist putting braces on me for about 4 years. It wasn't so bad, I kind of liked having braces. Yes I was a weird kid.
I've thought about slimming down so I'm not SUCH a major fatass before, but I wasn't really sure how to go about changing my habits, I was only able to diet for a little while, or excerise just enough to say "I made an effort..."
So one day I decided to make a change. I decided just as quickly as I had noticed the problem when I was 8, although it may very well have something to do with a trip to the doctor's office. My new Doctor, Dr. Maxim Kondrashov, awesome big russian man doctor has all of his new patients get blood work done to see exactly what it is he's dealing with. All my results came back normal, or at least acceptable. I'm not dieing, nutrient deficcient, or diabetic (which was kind of a surprise). But I do have slightly higher than what is considered to be "normal" cholesterol. I'm 25 years old. I'm too young to be having a cholesterol problem. I asked him what I can do, and he said "get 30 minutes of excersize 3 times a week". Yeah, thanks doc. Great advice for the girl who has never owned a car, and has KILLER hard calves from walking everywhere.
So I went to Sangsters and asked what I could do to change my diet to help lower my cholesterol. SHe printed off a list, I have it stashed in a book somewhere (Max Brooks WWZ) and noticed that I'm already doing everything right. avoid animal products. drink green tea. ginger. garlic. various vitamins and minerals which I had been taking for other health problems (Bs, C, calcium, magnesium, etc. for Anxiety) and really the only things I could do to change, would be cutting back sugar (not ready for that step yet) and start drinking. seriously.
So there I was. Stuck. I excersise plenty. It takes me 15 minutes to walk to work, and 15 minutes to get home. This involves 3 flights of stairs and sprinting across a busy street. I work in a tea store with access to all kinds of herbs and eat reasonably well. I still have guinea pigs, I need to keep fresh fruit and veg around for them, so I have some too. Whole grains whenever possible (ever notice how whole grain foods actually taste more like food??) and I had gotten used to the taste of Splenda and low fat foods when my mom was a dedicated Weight Watcher.
So one day I decided to join Curves. I'm going there a MINIMUM of 3 times per week... and yes, I walk to get there.
A couple weeks later, I signed up for a DAILY SESSION in a TORTURE CHAMBER known as VACUSTEP. It sucks. Seriously.
So because work has been goofy lately (more on that later) here's an outline of how today went for me:
AM: lazed around in bed. I'm not getting up if I don't have to. Chatted online, fed the piggies.
NOON: food time. Yogurt cups promising some kind of bull about bacteria making me healthy. I've been eating yogurt since I was little, and always aware that the bacteria is in it. There's no need to turn it into a health trend you guys :( also a fruit cup and whole wheat chicken wrap wikth lettuce... and you know that menu was a total lie :) I just microwaved a safeway select frozen lasagna individual portion. But I could have been less lazy.
Early Afternoon: showered, filled my water bottle, grabbed a couple of Curves brand granola bars and on my way out the door. Walked to Curves, did half hour session and took this photo:
after workout time, I went to a nearby store and bought a few packs of Udon noodles and a towel... then I went in to the spa (affiliated with the tea shop I work in) and had a lovely time in the VACUSTEP TORTURE CHAMBER OF SUCKY EVIL my right foot likes to slide outward when I step, so the pedal falls off quite often. They like to put a rubber band around my foot to hold a door stop there in place. And I feel like a giant toddler in one of those setups with the suspended seat on wheels with a 360 tray. Except it sucks.
After my session of suckiness, I asked to have a shower... that's why I bought a towel. I had been running around, working out at curves and then playing with vacustep, I didn't smell like a lady anymore. And then I ran to Safeway, grabbed a FUZE SHAPE, a roast beef wrap (on cheese wrap) and a fruit tray (true menu this time!) and then went to work. for only 4 hours. And got a tummy ache. Probably because I had milk... silly lactosintolerant me. And was asked by a certain nice young man to offer a sound clip for his Podcast, and he also asked if I would pose for a photo tomorrow morning... holding a cardboard sign while standing between his friend and his self. And then I came home and posted in my journal.
Hahahaha! I just noticed a bit of a colour theme here XD
I HAVE INTERNET. HAHAHAHAHA!!